As you all know I've been going thru a divorce this year and it has been emotionally draining to say the least. Even when you are so angry with someone that you could kill them, beneath that are some very very strong feelings still, even though you'd love them to go away. I've 'dated' a few fine young things over the last few months, which was awesome, but in all cases, it was 100% physical. Well, there is a woman in my neighborhood that I've had a 'crush' on since the very first time I laid eyes on her about 10 yrs ago. She is not only gorgeous, but is kind, sweet and fun loving. We exchanged numbers a while back because she would text me if she wanted to use our beach, or borrow our paddleboard or stuff like that. Then to me the texts started taking on a different nature. Well, in all honesty, I thought it was just wishful thinking on my part.
We started hanging out recently and the emotional bond is amazing. It's almost like we've known each other and felt things for each other forever. When she looks at me, what I read in her eyes is something I haven't seen in my wife's eyes in decades, if ever. I can only remember that look from my first real love back when I was 19, and here it was again when I am 52.
I had to give it a true litmus test though to see where I really stood on this new relationship. I listened to She's Gone by Hall and Oates this morning. And for the first time I didn't fall apart or want to drive my truck into a bridge abutment. It was just an old song. Nothing more. I texted my new 'friend' about that, and she said I needed to listen to Blake Shelton's Honey Bee, because that is how she felt about 'us'. I now have one whole Country song that I actually like!